date: Wednesday, June 03, 2009 @ 7:14 pm
title: Dream Part 1
Yesterday Pastor asked us this question.. "what is your greatest dream?" And the usual me, spring into action and scribbled a list (and I really mean a list of dreams I have) and I shared.
And I was thinking about it for the whole week since I finished a the 4th dimenison book: What is my dream? What do you want to do? What do you like to do? What is your calling? What are you made of? What you are good at? What.. what.. what..
And I have no answer. Like real answer to it. And I suddenly felt very empty - why i dun have an answer to it? I though I have it all along like grow church to hundreds and thousands, ten thousands and hundred thousands.
as the saying says, "I thought. you think. who confirm." I became very confused in my mind and as usual, when I noticed that, "it must be the lack of sleep. aiya. dun think abt it. go to sleep." but who knows that's escaping. hahaha. but to protect my faith and my thought life, I just forced myself to get some rest. calm the overworked brain and psycho myself to count the sheeps.
Even though singapore can be counted as a city that never sleeps. I was a waken by a voice. not God's but somebody else: "YOU ARE NOT EVEN SUPPOSED TO EXIST!" BAM! I'm awake. I'm startled by the voice. I was shaking. I knew my day's battle has started. It was like 4 am plus in the morning. I threw myself off the bed. Sat on my rolling chair. Took out my reading assignment book. And I began to focus on the Word of God from a Man of God. I kept focused. I knew the battle in my mind had started. I kept myself busy with the reading. I quickly jumped onto my assignment. I got to change and pack my stuff. And off I went to school...
(To be continued...)
